My last experiment of reducing music in my life was poorly executed. The first couple days went well, but I broke down. I love music and sound too much that it crept back into my life one car ride, run, or lonely moment at work at a time. But the reduction did make me notice my need for sound and noise more than I ever had.
And then a tragedy occurred. A friend from grammar school left us unexpectedly. Music was a must, and it was Dave Matthews Band that frequented my headphones for days. I hadn't particularly cared for them in High School but it was actually therapeutic. Soulful and mysterious. Different from what I was used to. And it made me remember my friend, and how much I teased him about this music.
My next experiment is inspired from a post I saw on the Fast, Pray, Give lenten calendar. It read, "fast from pretending things that some things are okay". It hits me now. Its makes me feel hollow when I look back at how many painful situations in my life I let ferment with no attempt to change. So these next few weeks I am fasting from pretending. I will find a situation that is troubling me and be proactive, not with the mentally that I can change anything but that I can have closure.
This quote came to me attached to an email that I received from craigslist.
Take care and good luck
"The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing." - Albert Einstein
